Title: Searching for Answers to Life

Gender: Female

Age: 44

Sun Sign: Cancer

Chinese Sign: Wood Snake

How to describe myself? I'm still just learning who I am; it's an ever changing and evolving process. I've been described by one who knows me well as an “esoteric hippie type, prone to manic episodes”….and that is mostly true. I can also be prone to depressive moods as well. My manic episodes stem mostly from becoming too passionate or obsessive over what ever arouses my curiosity,  or seems to give me purpose for the moment. I do, however, have a difficult time staying focused, and find myself shifting from one interest to another, and sometimes back again. I suppose I could be considered a little immature emotionally for my age. (“You're only as young as you feel,” and I still feel like a seventeen year old exploring life and new freedom.)
The depression sets in during those times when I wonder if I really have any control of my life at all, or if destiny is in charge. Destiny may feel safe, but where does that leave my choices?
I believe myself to be very empathetic to others feelings, and emotions, maybe even those they don't realize or recognize themselves. I feel like I “absorb” feelings of those around me, which can be a good thing or a bad thing. I am aware that I really must be careful of who I allow myself to spend a lot of time with, and what kind of environment I am surrounded by.
I know I am capable of being control freak, mostly because I feel the need to fix everything that seems to be wrong around me, including people. I know that this is not exactly within my power, but it still seems required of me that I at least try to make right what I can…I certainly still have a lot of work to do on the “accepting the things I cannot change, and knowing the difference” part.
Regarding religion, mine would be very eclectic.I believe more in finding one's own spirituality, and that there exists truth in all religions, as well as deception due to the fact that so many in history have altered the word and texts to suit their own agenda. I would never ever profess to know with certainty the nature of the Creator enough to say that this or that religion is the only one true way. So much misery and death has resulted over the ages from such thinking. Truth is in the heart and soul of one who loves all, respects all, and has mercy and compassion. A pure heart that can believe and have faith without having to know all the details so to speak.

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